Date: Tue, 6 Apr 2004
Subject: Xiaoxue's email about Tianpei's last days
My husband Tianpei went to be with the Lord yesterday (Sat 3/27)
around 1 pm in St Mary's Hospice unit. I was by his side until
his last breath and after...
I didn't expect that he left us so quick and sudden. One thing I
feel comforting is that he passed away very peacefully...
Friday evening, Joseph, Andrew and I went to see Tianpei in the Hospice
unit. Tianpei was awake and asked Joseph and I to help him move
from bed to a chair. While he was sitting in the chair, Joseph
and I kneed before him and each held his hand prayed for peace
and rest for him. Later in the night, the night shift nurse gave
him twice Morffine and when she helped Tianpei to turn, she saw Tianpei
was smiling. She described to me it was a beautiful, beautiful
smile.
From Saturday early morning, I noticed Tianpei's lips and
mouth were so dry and his gum was bleeding. He could not answer
me and seemed sleeping all the time. So I started giving
him warm RO water plus VB12 through sponges rubbing and cleaning
his teeth and gum, and a suringe to give more water into
his mouth. At the same time, I played a soft music CD of
Hymns for him and singing those Hymns to him...
One hour before his real passing, Tianpei was pushed to the death door
when a nurse came to give Tianpei a dry bath. I helped to undress him
and rubbing water with baby shampoo on Tianpei's almost naked body.
Then I noticed his breathing became heavier and heavier and his hands
and feet were cold. I asked the nurse to give Tianpei oxygen at once
and covered him with blanket and started to give him RO water plus VB12
through sponges and suringe. I kept singing the Hymn ALL THE WAY
MY SAVIOR LEADS ME to him in tears and
telling Tianpei I love him and my promises to him for our two
children and more... then slowly Tianpei's breath became easier and
smoother...then he swallowed the water accummulated in his mouth. Then
the head nurse by his bed side told me Tianpei was back to life and
should be OK for a while. Then we both noticed tears hanging near his
eyes. He must have heard me and felt loved or relieved or saying
good-bye to me...
Then a brother from the Olive fellowship came to watch Tianpei
for me while I went to lunch. I asked
him giving water to Tianpei all the time until I return from
lunch. About 20 minutes later, I went back to Tianpei's bed side
and found his breathing once again became heavier and heavier. I just
kept giving him water on his lips and his gum by sponge while singing
the Hymn and repeating my love/promises to him, telling him God will
take good care of him, me, Joseph and Andrew; he will see from above
how his children grow up; and promise him I'll put all my heart to
raise our children walking on God's righteous path and honor their
father and mother... this time
Tianpei didn't return. I could feel life was slipping away with
his each breath more and more gentle. Finally
he stopped breathing. He passed away very peacefully. No sign of pain,
no wrinkles, no frowning on his face, but perfect peace. He looked much
younger to me. His skin became so smooth...
We have walked a long way fighting cancer. We have tried our best. We
have joined our hearts together
to fight the battle to the finish.
Tianpei is now free of cancer.
Thank the Lord our God for all your prayers, support,
help and love towards us. We're not alone in this
battle because you are behind us and selflessly
support us in many ways. May God richly bless you all.
Love in Christ,
Xiaoxue